Here in London we are in the rapturous throes of autumn and it seems particularly exquisite to me this year. Has it always been so magical? With the atmospheric lighting, mistiness and pinky orange leaf crunchy carpet there outside my front door? I think it was, maybe I just didn’t notice it as much before.
At the moment I’m exploring what it is to reach into the edges of me and my experiences, outside of my comfort zone and into the periphery. This means trying new things, getting outside in the cold, questioning my beliefs and also on a physical level feeling into the place where my skin meets the space around me.
Where do I begin and end? Can I inhabit the sensation of my fingertips hitting the keypads? Can I slip into the dark night even though it frightens me? These just some of the questions unfolding for me in this exploration of my edges.
I realise that I am so much more than I thought I was before. There is always more to discover and rediscover in the world around me. As I challenge both my mind and body it has made me realise how much I have limited myself in the past by making assumptions about myself and what I can do and then constantly re-enforcing those. And it feels really exciting to question that box I had squeezed myself into.
How do we define ourselves? What are our limitations - are they negotiable? When we reach into our edges we may fail or fall but that is part of the learning experience too. As children we spend a lot of time discovering the world around us - touching and seeing and feeling, it’s all new. I wonder how we can keep this sense of exploration as adults.
This challenge has opened up new door ways and possibilities inside my yoga, meditation and movement practice, reminding me that there are always choices and new ways of trying things. As my body and the world constantly shifts and evolves, surely so too should my practice?
All the birds
and creatures of the world are unutterably
themselves. Everything is waiting for you.